Hi! it's been a while. i have decided to re-open this blog and i will start catching up on all that has happened in the last few months - and wow it's a lot, but i will be doing it very slowly so please be patient. i originally closed this blog because i felt that it was becoming far too personal, a vehicle for my moaning and complaining. it is always therapeutic to have a good rant, but my rants became very ugly and my blog started sounding like the diary of an angst-ridden teenager, which doesn't make for very interesting reading. i have ummed and aarred about whether i should edit out some of the worst of my 'railings against fate', but i am just too lazy ;-) and i also think that if i want people to truly understand what i am going through then i have to show the good, the bad and the ugly.
so now i will just give you a quick catch-up and then more detail will follow. currently colin and i are living in our beautiful mountain flat and we still have fights and i still have convulsions and get depressed, but things are slowly getting better and the change of scenery - especially to such beautiful scenery - has definitely helped. my recovery is on track although i am still on the same medication and probably have another year left before i am really myself again, but at this point i don't even know who myself will be at the end of all this. this experience has changed me so much already that i can't even imagine what i will be like at the end of it all. i do suspect that most of the changes will be good though ;-).
the other big decision that has been made well, really forced upon me is to go home to cape town, south africa in december (my work visa expires in november and i am not able to return to work yet). i will leave taiwan on december 2 and arrive in cape town on december 3. the flight will be hellish, but not dangerous and i have to admit that after all my determination to stay in taiwan and 'go it alone'; i am actually very relieved to be going home. i will be seeing family and friends, south africa, for the first time in 3 years and i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. i plan to sit back and relax while my family and my home takes care of me. this will also be a great relief to colin who has been my sole comforter and the carrier of all the burdens this year. so, i am also very happy for colin that he will finally get the rest and fun he deserves.
and finally, i have missed many anniversaries, but luckily today is an ANNIVERSARY. it has been 7 months, yes 7, since i had my gamma knife radio surgery AND cigarette smoke has not entered my lungs for ... dum dum dum ... 8 months! yes, count them ladies and gentlemen, 8 whole months (since january 8) and i'll never go back. yay for me!
PS. 'patience is a virtue' so, exercise some patience and i will eventually continue to recount the saga that is my life (a bit melodramatic maybe, but i'm in a playful mood today ;-).
so now i will just give you a quick catch-up and then more detail will follow. currently colin and i are living in our beautiful mountain flat and we still have fights and i still have convulsions and get depressed, but things are slowly getting better and the change of scenery - especially to such beautiful scenery - has definitely helped. my recovery is on track although i am still on the same medication and probably have another year left before i am really myself again, but at this point i don't even know who myself will be at the end of all this. this experience has changed me so much already that i can't even imagine what i will be like at the end of it all. i do suspect that most of the changes will be good though ;-).
the other big decision that has been made well, really forced upon me is to go home to cape town, south africa in december (my work visa expires in november and i am not able to return to work yet). i will leave taiwan on december 2 and arrive in cape town on december 3. the flight will be hellish, but not dangerous and i have to admit that after all my determination to stay in taiwan and 'go it alone'; i am actually very relieved to be going home. i will be seeing family and friends, south africa, for the first time in 3 years and i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. i plan to sit back and relax while my family and my home takes care of me. this will also be a great relief to colin who has been my sole comforter and the carrier of all the burdens this year. so, i am also very happy for colin that he will finally get the rest and fun he deserves.
and finally, i have missed many anniversaries, but luckily today is an ANNIVERSARY. it has been 7 months, yes 7, since i had my gamma knife radio surgery AND cigarette smoke has not entered my lungs for ... dum dum dum ... 8 months! yes, count them ladies and gentlemen, 8 whole months (since january 8) and i'll never go back. yay for me!
PS. 'patience is a virtue' so, exercise some patience and i will eventually continue to recount the saga that is my life (a bit melodramatic maybe, but i'm in a playful mood today ;-).
