Anniversary

today is a day of many anniversaries.

i have been an entire year without cigarettes today. woohoo! i still have quite a few friends that smoke and even though i still get terrible cravings when i see them smoke, to the point where i almost grab the cigarette out of their hand so i can have a drag, i am also incredibly happy that i dont smoke anymore. that coughing, smelly, yucky part of my life is over and i feel healthier and cleaner for it. i know that i will never go back. it is the freedom of knowing that i am not controlled by these little tubes of tobacco anymore which feels so good. i dont have to run to the shop when i run out, i dont have to worry about taking boxes with me when i go away, i dont have to go and stand outside and puff on a ciggie every half an hour. those horrid little things have no control over me anymore. and i smell better too ;-).

it has also been a year since i was diagnosed with an AVM on my brain stem and i started this blog on saturday, april 8 2007, which means that i have been vomiting my life story and my thoughts onto these pages for exactly 9 months. this blog is my therapist, my diary, my confidante and eventually, hopefully my book.