Anniversary

Happy anniversary to me! It has been 9 months since my gamma knife radio brain surgery. my condition has improved a lot since i first had the surgery, but i still have a long way to go. one would imagine that this slow recovery would test my patience, but it doesn't really. i mean, i don't have any choice in the matter really so the only thing i can do is 'put my head down' and just get through it the best i can. plus, the time periods involved in my recovery are just too long and the actual pace of my recovery so uncertain that it is difficult for me to get impatient. i have been ill for so long that it has become normal for me; this is my life. i think when i am finally able to drink, dance, run, fuck, work, drive, party again, that will be the huge adjustment for me, that will be WEIRD.