Anniversary

So, it must be mentioned ... although i missed the first one. but today is an anniversary. it has been 1 year and 5 months since i had my gamma knife radio brain surgery. i am still coming off medication and i am not 100%, but i am so much better in many ways. hooray! haven't had a seizure in ages!!!

and i missed tuesday, 8 july which was another anniversary. it was my 1 year and 6 month anniversary of no-smoking and finding out about my AVM.

in so many weird and little ways i have slowly begun to appreciate what a gift this whole experience has been. how much it has changed me and my life for the better in the end. it has not been fun, it has certainly not been easy, but i think that i am coming out of it a more self-aware, a more self-confident, a more balanced person. that is not to say that i am a saint or that there is no room for improvement. far from it! maybe what i am trying to say is that all of THIS - that has happened to me and is on my blog - has made me aware of just how much room for improvement there is ... how much better a person i can be and will strive to be. but knowing full-well that i am already a good person.

the most important thing is that i will be doing it for ME.